It’s nice to meet you. My name is Calla and I like to think of myself as a pretty normal person. My life has not been the most pleasant and I can now admit that. However, as I grow up and meet new people, have new experiences and learn new things I am slowly but surely learning to enjoy my life and be happy. It has not been easy and I know I have a long way to go to be happy, but I’m trying. Now I know what you’re thinking, Calla what does your rubbish childhood have to do with this blog? Well to be fair everything. I am writing this blog and going to try to stick with it because I want to be happy and I want to show you that it can be done. All my life experiences have led to this blog. I started a college course for media and communications.
I’ll be honest with you, I have little interest in this course, but I didn’t get even close to the grades I needed to get into University. Which, I’ll be honest, sucks. But I think this course is one of the best things to happen to me for a while. I have been making friends and beginning to see the appeal in doing something again. This course has brought the light back to me after two years of hell in school, and this blog will be one step in getting back into my hobbies and enjoying life again. I used to be a big writer, I wrote stories all the time, it was all I did. Then I stopped. What was the point in writing those stupid useless stories when I had exams and a future to secure? What use was fun or good mental health when it was taking away from my studies? What use were friends? They were distractions at best, study buddies at best. What was the point in sleeping or eating? They were a waste of time.
Sounds bleak, doesn’t it? Trust me it was. It was horrible and I’m still in that mentality mostly. I spent two years doing nothing but writing essays and crying. I gave up everything and what do I have to show for it? A college course I didn’t even want to do and still have little interest in? Sure but I also have a huge group of new friends, a job, and I haven’t broken down crying for months. I’m still a mess but hopefully, you’ll join me as I try to fix the mess that I am.